Curses! Foiled again.
For whatever reason, I have not yet won the Megamillions Lottery. Somebody else took the 315 million, dagnabbit. Must console myself with chocolate. 
Today after school, I have to endure an hour of tutoring the minions of Satan. 
I hope to heaven they’re better than last time. They are NOT getting candy, either. Who me? Hold grudges from the last time when they were whining and disobedient? Naaaahhhh….
I’ve recruited some peer tutors to help me, and hopefully we can divide and conquer. Don’t get me wrong. I don’t mind tutoring kids who genuinely need help and are trying hard. I love those kids and would happily give up time for them. It’s the evil ones who are flunking because they don’t care, they don’t want to try, and they’d rather be a behavior problem than learn, that I’d like to string up from the nearest tree. 
In other news, I’m revised up through page 178 of my GH book. I had a moment of panic last night when I re-read the first chapter and the little voices inside my head whispered, “It’s not very good, is it?” I promptly opened an earlier draft, convinced myself that I had it right the first time…and later decided that the rewritten version was stronger. It was the demons of self-doubt again. I go through this all the time. On a brighter note, I discovered a few places in the book that I know are rock-solid. The kind where I lose myself in the story and just sigh, thinking, “Wow. Did I actually write that? Very cool.” 
So tonight, it’s more revising and hopefully I’ll survive the day without any casualties. 
Michelle posted in Writing @ 7:51 am | Viewed 1315 times
Kelly Says:
Oh my god that chocolate smilie made me snort I was laughing so hard! And you know I’m glad I’m not the only one who is constantly shocked and surprised when I don’t win the lottery. I think I have entitlement issues. And I had the same issues when I reread my early chpts for my GH entry. I re-edited yesterday and fixed them up and my crit partner promises me they’re good, so I’ve decided to agree with her. I have officially lost alllll perspective.
kacey Says:
Love the chocolate smilie!!
No Negative November…remember that!!
And if the kids give you trouble…:fryingpan: them back in line. Hope you survive! (how often do you get assigned tutoring duty??)
Peggy Says:
Self-doubts, the true little demons! Yes, what a wonderful feeling when you read something you wrote and are so impressed with yourself.
Good luck with the GH entry!!:grin:
Robyn Says:
I only love you for your smilies.
And the best advice I ever got was “Give yourself permission to write crap. You can always fix it later.” And only through writing crap have I been able to keep up the NaNoWriMo word count!
Congrats on the revisions, and I know you’re headed for a contract.
Melissa Says:
OMG! The chocolate bunny smilie is HILARIOUS!
I don’t know how you do what you do for a living, Michelle. I honestly couldn’t do it. But I’m glad you can! That is so cool that you can be an inspiration to your students.
The demon of self-doubt plagues us all. Just think of it as Darth Vadar, something that must be vanquished! :starwars:
Missie Says:
A few years from now, when you are a guest on all the daily shows and they introduce you as “Michelle Willingham, the author of the breakaway bestseller (insert title here) which has sold 79 kajillion copies this month alone”, I will smile, tip my coffee cup to you:coffee2:, and say to my husband, “I know her.”:cheer:
Bonnie Ferguson Says:
Those self-doubt demons are hideous
It is cool when you can lose yourself in your story 
Woo Hoo, Michelle!!! 
Amy K. Says:
Good luck with the hellions! It sounds like you’re doing great with revisions. Wish I had a cure for the self doubt monster, but unfortunately I don’t.
Michelle Says:
I have to credit Sharon Long with the smilies. Man, she had some good ones. I couldn’t resist.
Sharon, you can steal any of mine, too!
Mary Says:
Good luck with tutoring! I admire you. Self-doubt–it’s something writers have to deal with.
Cindy Says:
I love that chocolate bunny smilie. Good luck with the tutoring. Woo hoo on the losing yourself in your book. I love it when that happens.
Danica Says:
Love the chocolate buny!
You need a bomb or a machine gun smilie, though, so we can use it on the doubt demons.:rambo:
Never mind, found it.
I’m tempted to change blogs just so I can get these good smilies. 
Like this one too:
MaryF Says:
I am right with you on the self doubt demons….good luck in the GH!